yeah it’s a bit devastating having to come to terms with the fact that not caring for oneself is not just a silly choice I make but a consequence of emotional immaturity which is tied to parts of my brain not developing because I had other things to worry about but hey, what can you do?

now that we can see the impact of the choices we are making with a sense of clarity, we can make different choices 😛

anywho, I’m grappling with the audience of it all. do y’all want wisdom, swag, beauty? oops, you will get all three every time ahaha

ok… maybe you don’t want to get preached at so let me tell you some events.

I played scrabble with kai (I lost and learned). I took my time packing (very nice, highly recommend). I saw zootopia 2 with kai. I went brunch with amelia. I got boba with steezy. I got lit tour of the Lizzie Borden House by Ray. I clocked into my shift of raising and therapizing my parents. I think progress was made, but at the expense of my rest and privacy, alas (they are not getting this blog post, trust).

I am excited to complete Yale. I can’t tell if it’s because I feel like I have suffered enough to earn my diploma or because I just want to leave. The funny thing is, I don’t think I suffered much academically. Maybe I did but other events took precedent in worse ways.

Anywho, if you’ve read this far, I am so proud of you! I think lots more people are depressed than they care to admit to themselves so good job <3. If you’re not but you take care of your homies who are, big hug, we appreciate you! Extra good job if you didn’t walk around this school with a stick up your ass and were able to remember that it’s bigger than you.

Your suffering is not the center of the universe, what a blessing.